自欺

如果自欺可以让自己好过一些， 你会吗？

人总是喜欢活在谎言之中， 因为只有这样才会感到所欲的幸福和安全。
坚持面对事实可以很痛苦，
坚持不活在谎言之中， 真的不是想像中的简单容易。

今天塔飞机回马六甲，
想了很多很多。
在飞机上的心情有一点乱，
心里话到底是什么？自己也变地模糊了。
是心碎还是遗憾和不舍呢？

I really thought I was fine.
In KK, had heart to heart talks with CJV n Hailing.
But when I felt like I wanna tell them about it, I suddenly realised I had ntg to say at all.
Only then I realised I had blocked the whole incident out of my head.
My brain has yet to process it.

As of now, I feel okay :)
The agony is temporary gone because I've found my ground.
Before this, it was so torturing because I dunno where I stand,
what I want, what is real and what is unreal.

The truth is as real as you let it be, I guess.
Thank you for letting me go? Now I shall work hard to do the same.
You are a very precious friend :)
my stand is that I dont want to lose you.

It's amazing I guess..
How we can just talk n chat like ntg ever happened.
Like how we were long ago.
Thank you for today.

Thank You for everything, always <3

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