My farewell~ MEH?

feeling rly down.

sry to say lar. i actually felt like nt going.

ONe.. family... mmmhmm...

ONe Farewell for me & Dom? u sure?

or is just u guys' punya day out?

haha.. rly sry la. u guys din make me feel like the main character for tis outing.

well, tis is wad i think lar:

planner gt prob?

Seriously, even d main character cant attend an event, u guys go wit it juga?

whr's d logic in tat? u guys just wanted to take d chance go watch movie... IRON MAN II or IP MAN.

wan take chance go Den2 & Sharon's 1B apartment. rite?

didnt rly feel the family feel in here? haha..

pfft. oso kan, another main character (Dom) pun sudah watch both shows lar. he rewatch tim.

haiya.. y cant u guys, just listen or get the hint? tsk.. or u dun wan get it?

Actually, me & Dom wanted go Sabah Museum. can make more memories den watch movie la pls. think pls? -.- goshh.. no offence, i'm disappointed.

if u say, aiyo! den tell la u wan go museum!

HAHA. hw funny. i did. so did Dom.

bt wad did i hear? "Eh~ Den2~ u sure u ady book d movie tickets a? ^^ *SMILE*"

wad else u wan me say leh?

i dunno is my problem or wad?

I OWAYS FEEL SO EFFIN SMALL whn around u.

i wonder if i ever had impact on other ppl..

i wonder if u guys would even rmb me after i leave?

对我公平一点可以吗？

u noe ka? i noe u felt tat i chged. since Form1.

true. i did. i admit.

form1, still young, still naive.

well, have u ever tot y i chged?

cz i felt like.. a stupid dumb blonde all the time.

i try my best make things memorable & enjoyable for ppl.

i try my best to help them.

but how many ppl? hw many times? did they ever try their best to do the same for me?

karine once told me, "i chged. i'm nt tat into u guys anymore.. i dont "search" within u guys.."

well then, " hw many times did u even search within me?"

u guys dunno hw it feels like.. to understand other ppl, bt nt understood by ppl....

it actually hurts & stings.

I chged becz, some thots hit me.

"wad's d point of being so caring, whn u doubt they'd do the same to u?"

just let me b more selfish.. for once?

i bet u didnt noe tat i noe..

In Form2, we had a fight... then cold shoulder..

HAH. then we went separate ways.. & u said to karine, "AIYA, nvm de la. after a while she'll come back to us de :) "

HOHOHO. taken for granted much? wtff...

urghh.. the chains of sorrow. yeah.. they root within oneself.

from one thing link to so many other unhappy things...

tonight still gt farewell dinner with ONe.

its gonna b tiring...

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crankyness brings the taste of bitter

maybe didnt slp well tis few days.. plus work pressure kan.. ):

brought back many many thoughts of bitterness.

i'll get the biggest one off my shoulder 1st X(

yeah, tat's u.

pfft. thr's so many hateful & mad things i wanna tell to ur face.

but i guess, it'll b totally random? *SIGHS*

i rmb clearly, that day.. during spm exam...

i was just sharing abt my brother going to india to study dentistry.

WHICH i am proud of :)

BUT... u just had to do that didnt u?

u're always like tat.

every1 else is nt important.

only urself.... i wonder if u ever thot of hw i felt whn u said those words?

even eileen was shocked u said things like tat.

"OMG seriously?! ur brother?! DENTISTRY?! he is like SHIT lar."

"U THINK LA. u see ur bro like tat. whr got ppl wan go see him see teeth oh!"

(SUPER LC FACE)

"if me i rather die oh"

* thr's still more, she kip emphasising on SHIT*

WTF?! HAH? wad did i ever do to u oh? wad did HE ever do to u?

i swear, if tat time nt spm period, i definitely argue wit u. ARGUE BIG BIG.

KAO. who r u la?! U SO GOOD MEH? PUII. GOOD SO WAD?

NO NID B BEST IN EVERYTHING?! NO NID OWAYS STEP ABOVE MY HEAD.

sometimes i cant help but feel tat u feel tat 'm a threat?

whnever i win u in smthing, it feels... scary? i rly hate hw u treat me sometimes.

like i'm ur rival. bt u still kip me close as a fren.

i feel like nothing. nobody....... no1 important.

d only time, u would look for me, is when u nid help.

help do tis, do tat? help solve tis solve tat?

den whn i needed help? whr r u? it's quite hard to talk to u.

oH oh.. another time u will look for me, is when u got smth feel nice to show off.

PFFT. 踩低别人是抬不高自己的！

anyways, thanks to ur actions tat day.

i woke up. i realised hw important my bro is. & hw much i rly love him despite hating him at the same tym :P

bt then, nw i'm soaked in guilt.. cz i din stand up for him.

cz i din tell u off with ur damm attitude.

GOSH. i doubt this burden's off my shoulder until i rly tell u hw much u've hurt me.

at that time & all along.......

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