My heart wavers at the very hope given..
The questions that clouded my mind,
The doubts that blocked my path,
The incertainty that was bottled up..
Awakened.

I never realised how fragile my resolve was.
Pathetic!
All was fake. Courage, calmness.
The outer apperance..
Will nvr fail to deceive any1.
The violent storm of the heart..
Unseen.. Well Hidden.

The skin itself is cold,
Yet it holds the fiery and trembling streams of blood,
Gushing at every pinch of nervousness.
The ball of iron that holds now the tension,
And the spurts of adrenaline that fasten every heartbeat.

The tears and hidden fears,
were not meant to be..
But again, their existence within one,
is UNDENIABLE.
They root within a soul,
and cause pain whenever possible..

- XClairevoyanist -

JUST BELIEVE

It sounds so easy but actually its very hard to do so, God..
Things are turning the other way round.
I was careless and I pend sincerely for my parents' and Your forgiveness.
I'm sorry Father..
But I cant stop blaming n hating myself..

Before dad rly comes home, I rly want to believe.
In You God. In Your Miracles.
You know it better than anything else.
My worries, my fears.. and definately my occasional doubtings.

But God, I want Yuu to know that..
I;m scared. But I'm willing to trust.
I need Your help.
I need Your courage and strength to face wadever
the consequences of my carelessness.

I cant breath properly right now.
My heart feels heavy.
I wanna just sleep but I know I wont be able to.
So God, I'll praying with all my heart..
and my remaining strength that you can make a miracle happen today..
I know I'm a bit selfish, but God.. please?

The sticky notes on my comp, well,
I had to help myself believe..
I hope U're not mad..