no one I can talk to about so many things.
there are people for me to talk to.
but I simply cannot.
Do you know that feeling?
I've gotten used to bottling up my thoughts.
There's always the issue of privacy, of trust, of shoulds & should nots.
If I tell, it might be degrading to the 'subject'.
If I tell, people will talk & then things get complicated.
If I tell, will they actually understand?
I'm so used to building walls around myself.
I've tried, really I have... to tear them down slowly & build bridges instead..
But having it backfire time after time is depressing.
):
Not only that, in MMU, especially my law course,
everyone is kepoh. Everyone!
Gotta guard my own secrets properly or it goes viral.
God, I pray for my family.. keep them safe from harm & out of evil ways.
Lord Jesus, I pray that the court case will be resolved in our favour asap.
Thank You God :) Amen.
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Saturday, August 4, 2012
distracted.
goodness! I can't focus in studying! :(
nid to get some things off my chest I guess?
been wanting to blog about things, but then dun seem to be able to do so?
it's like words just dont come to me.
even as of now, it is the same.
but it's making me sien & restless so I'll just try to make myself feel better? :(
hmm~ ok, so this post is gonna be about 'you'.
I feel bad really, for talking behind your back?
but I feel good, for letting it out? hahahaha and finding that others feel the same damn way.
& now I'm caught in a dilemma -__-
I don't really wanna be THAT close with you,
but then again, I am already the closest fren you have here?
full of myself? maybe.
It's not like me to be fake in front of people.
Being nice & being fake are different things.
Please see the line that distinguishes them.
Lately, well as of this semester, I gotta admit, I am being fake.
but only to you :)
Why?? Because that's just who I am.
I give back whatever shit or candy you gimme.
So you gave me shit, why should I give you candy?
You turned ppl against me. deliberately.
Thank God I did not fall to your standards, well, I dont have a need to~
Since you've already done it yourself.
seriously, you think you are that good at reading people.
you assume you are always right.
you assume you know me, but how much do you really?
urgh, one thing that I really despise about you- you hide things.
From so many people for so many selfish reasons.
It's sad.
It's saddening to see how others are falling...
somehow I'm glad that I won't be thr to see them hit the ground.
Your parents for one.
Why do you hide your bf from them?
a quote "a relationship in hiding will nvr last."
in the 3 years I've known you, you've chged like 3 bfs.
I try not to be judgmental, but really, you have a pattern.
The newest one, just dont seem to be THE ONE for you either,
but no harm sucking out every advantage u got rite?
oh yea, & dah lah got bf, stop flirting with other guys lah.
ketaranya the difference in personality when with us & with other guys.
FAKE.
& how dare you tell me I am the one who is fake.
goodness, lately getting close with one guy friend~ super nice fella :)
I hope he's not under her spell cz it would be heartbreaking to see him enslaved.
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nid to get some things off my chest I guess?
been wanting to blog about things, but then dun seem to be able to do so?
it's like words just dont come to me.
even as of now, it is the same.
but it's making me sien & restless so I'll just try to make myself feel better? :(
hmm~ ok, so this post is gonna be about 'you'.
I feel bad really, for talking behind your back?
but I feel good, for letting it out? hahahaha and finding that others feel the same damn way.
& now I'm caught in a dilemma -__-
I don't really wanna be THAT close with you,
but then again, I am already the closest fren you have here?
full of myself? maybe.
It's not like me to be fake in front of people.
Being nice & being fake are different things.
Please see the line that distinguishes them.
Lately, well as of this semester, I gotta admit, I am being fake.
but only to you :)
Why?? Because that's just who I am.
I give back whatever shit or candy you gimme.
So you gave me shit, why should I give you candy?
You turned ppl against me. deliberately.
Thank God I did not fall to your standards, well, I dont have a need to~
Since you've already done it yourself.
seriously, you think you are that good at reading people.
you assume you are always right.
you assume you know me, but how much do you really?
urgh, one thing that I really despise about you- you hide things.
From so many people for so many selfish reasons.
It's sad.
It's saddening to see how others are falling...
somehow I'm glad that I won't be thr to see them hit the ground.
Your parents for one.
Why do you hide your bf from them?
a quote "a relationship in hiding will nvr last."
in the 3 years I've known you, you've chged like 3 bfs.
I try not to be judgmental, but really, you have a pattern.
The newest one, just dont seem to be THE ONE for you either,
but no harm sucking out every advantage u got rite?
oh yea, & dah lah got bf, stop flirting with other guys lah.
ketaranya the difference in personality when with us & with other guys.
FAKE.
& how dare you tell me I am the one who is fake.
goodness, lately getting close with one guy friend~ super nice fella :)
I hope he's not under her spell cz it would be heartbreaking to see him enslaved.
❥ †r¥ïñg †ö lïvê †hê ß꧆ öµ† ö£ ï† ツ
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