Don't think I can take it anymore.
This trip back is horrible.
It's so suffering inside...
at home, mum and dad oways quarrel over the most trivial things.
dad aint much of a gentleman or a understanding husband.
mum is over-reactive, small gas and emotional.
bro is being a pain in the ass as usual, and seriously, the MCS is acting up again.
fuck it.
i really just wanna fuck it.
MCS is killing me at home... and my mum's assumptions of things.
GAWD. not to really complain, but it just pressures me A LOT.
you know the irony when parents ask u to slim down yet they stuff u with food?
well yeah. and this time back, i'm so busy with organizing the gatherings.
damn tiring. so i lose my appetite one way or another..
then my mum would always complain,
"ya la, my food don't reach yr standards la"
"see, always eat out la... my food tasteless liao lor..."
"i dun want to cook liao."
"i dun want to cook liao."
it's like 'waterparkkk' man~
so i end up eating so damn a lot, cz my bro n sis wouldnt eat!
gosh, I'm a crowd pleaser. that's why I'm suffocating.
In my heart, I just wanna get back to Melaka.
my freedom. my life. without all these external pressure closing in on me.
Miss my MFs damn a lot! )':
somehw, it's stressful hanging out with some of my frends here.
there's just that border... u noe?
cz I left last year...
and I just don't really fit in as much since obviously..
we don't share the same memories anymore rite?
it's painful in a way...
but it's okay :) because the part of me, from Melaka is awesome and I like it.
but yet again, I just cant seem to be that 'me' around my KK friends.
Maybe because I'm an adaptive person?
the craziness and humour point of my Melaka friends and KK are quite different.
maybe a bit mismatched.
but dont get me wrong, I still love my KK frends :)
perhaps I hang out with Melaka frends more lately...
really miss them. them and their fucking annoying-ness :D
i mentioned smth abt quitting drinking.
i really did consider that.
but coming back was so stressful (I rly dunno why it's getting on my nerve),
that I went all over the place looking for liquor. but of cz I din drink lar..
I'll save it for Melaka. there'll be 2 high parties to crash ;)
after that, maybe... hopefully, I will quit bah. hehe...
after that, maybe... hopefully, I will quit bah. hehe...
oh yea, less photos this time.
I dunno why I bothered to bring the camera.
it felt awkward and weird.. perhaps even a little distant.
i don't like it... or perhaps we're just growing up? is it?
haih, regretful, remorseful. that's what I feel after each gathering.
Gonna have a BFF day out with Karine 2mr.
It's be great :) It'll be the pinnacle of this holiday.
please oh please, Dear God...
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