#18/09/2011

late posting:/-

Every fucking time.

When I rly nid someone, just someone, anyone...
In those rare occasions when I feel really lost, scared, alone...
No one ever ever is there.

I rly dun understand. They talk about karma.

Well, as for the record, I was always always there for other people.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming anyone.
I just don't fucking understand why every fucking time, life just don't let me get to you ppl.

Texts, none replied.
Calls, none picked up.

Even when finally one of the texts was replied, after awhile no response ady.
After hrs, then comes an apology "smth came up"
The moment is then lost and the feeling sank deep down inside,
bottled and locked away.

What the fuck man...
and then ppl always wondered why I don't tell them things.
Aside from having MCS, life moulded me that way.
I want to tell ppl how I feel. I wan to express myself.

I am not that strong. I realised I cry a lot :'(
I am weak. But all these, I face alone. Every fucking time.

Self-soothe. All these years. I'm just so tired.
Faith, yes. But then again, I'm just human..

there's this need for communication with earthly ppl.

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