JUST BELIEVE

It sounds so easy but actually its very hard to do so, God..
Things are turning the other way round.
I was careless and I pend sincerely for my parents' and Your forgiveness.
I'm sorry Father..
But I cant stop blaming n hating myself..

Before dad rly comes home, I rly want to believe.
In You God. In Your Miracles.
You know it better than anything else.
My worries, my fears.. and definately my occasional doubtings.

But God, I want Yuu to know that..
I;m scared. But I'm willing to trust.
I need Your help.
I need Your courage and strength to face wadever
the consequences of my carelessness.

I cant breath properly right now.
My heart feels heavy.
I wanna just sleep but I know I wont be able to.
So God, I'll praying with all my heart..
and my remaining strength that you can make a miracle happen today..
I know I'm a bit selfish, but God.. please?

The sticky notes on my comp, well,
I had to help myself believe..
I hope U're not mad..