!(&#@*#(!&$)!()#@()!@!!!
GRRR!~
STOP THROWING THINGS FOR ME TO HANDLE LAH.
OMG. F*CK MAI LIFE.
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Saturday, June 30, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
mental down breaking.
de blah de blah de blah.
long time no see.
goodness, rly can't take it anymore.
today was very very overwhelming.
Law Seminar this n that,
CSS gatherings this n that,
School Works to catch up.
feeling pressured.
feeling unappreciated.
feeling edgy.
annoyed.
angry for no reason.
This is getting too much.
I can't stop the tears somehow.
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long time no see.
goodness, rly can't take it anymore.
today was very very overwhelming.
Law Seminar this n that,
CSS gatherings this n that,
School Works to catch up.
feeling pressured.
feeling unappreciated.
feeling edgy.
annoyed.
angry for no reason.
This is getting too much.
I can't stop the tears somehow.
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Friday, April 20, 2012
I dont expect any of you to understand
PRANKING.
it's just part of me man.. if you cant take it, just OVERSEE IT.
To you ppl:
I thought u would have known me better. Not understand, but know.
I'm disappointed. This happened before.
Maybe you don't understand why I like to prank, but the fact is that you must have at least known.
Why are you out to spoil my pranks?
NOTHING is perfect. I NOE.
You see those imperfections, I NOE.
Cant you, for the love of God, let it slide?
Again, human fraility.
Everyone wants to be smart.
They feel superior when they THINK they outsmart other people.
damn all of these.
you think I dont see the imperfections in the pranks I pull?
oh puhlease.
I noe who are likely and unlikely to fall for the pranks.
izzit that hard to ignore or play along?
haters gonna hate.
bye.
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it's just part of me man.. if you cant take it, just OVERSEE IT.
To you ppl:
I thought u would have known me better. Not understand, but know.
I'm disappointed. This happened before.
Maybe you don't understand why I like to prank, but the fact is that you must have at least known.
Why are you out to spoil my pranks?
NOTHING is perfect. I NOE.
You see those imperfections, I NOE.
Cant you, for the love of God, let it slide?
Again, human fraility.
Everyone wants to be smart.
They feel superior when they THINK they outsmart other people.
damn all of these.
you think I dont see the imperfections in the pranks I pull?
oh puhlease.
I noe who are likely and unlikely to fall for the pranks.
izzit that hard to ignore or play along?
haters gonna hate.
bye.
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Sunday, April 8, 2012
Humane
there are so many things that makes one humane.
I fucking hate it.
why do people have the need to share information?
is like what they say, "没人分享，快乐只剩一半"
this applies to me as well. Seriously, I dont have much of an outlet.
oh yes, I found out some bloody shocking happy news but it has to be kept on the downlow.
which REALLY just makes me wanna tell ppl even more.
u get? damn.
and so, very smart me, I chose to tell someone about my brother.
and very the smart her, she go n tell my brother that I told her.
I was like WHAT THE FUCK? -___-
my bro is never gonna let me know anything ady lar.
where got ppl reveal their fucking sources one?
you think it's funny? really?
compromising ur sources will only lead ur source to a dead end.
DO YOU NOE HOW HARD IT IS TO GAIN TRUST?
FML. I'm not gonna tell u shit anymore la.
U expect utmost honesty between all of us, but really u think that can happen?
Fuck. I'm not even gonna tell u about my stuff anymore.
have fun being kept in the dark.
n really, I am so tired of this MCS thing.
the moment I bring up the topic abt my bro,
why am I still surprised that the attention shifted immediately and the call ends thr.
dafuq? why do I always feel so belittled when compared to him?
even when the attention was on me, most of the time, I just felt fuyan-ness.
oh yes, I AM always the doorknob topic.
after all the fuyanness then u talk abt urself only.
I get it that the people u want attention from isnt giving it to you,
and I am always, always the one who could give that to you...
but I am only human.
all I ask for is more sincerity?
all I ask for is to NOT be taken for granted.
just becz the world is unfair to you doesnt give u the right to be unfair to me.
it is actually harder than you think to make myself always be the one others can depend on.
just becz I try to be a good kid doesn't mean I'm THAT good that when I did a small mistake,
one small evil makes me a worse kid compared to the kids who are bad for the start.
It really is just perceptions and assumptions.
It really is just humane.
and it definitely is damn unfair.
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I fucking hate it.
why do people have the need to share information?
is like what they say, "没人分享，快乐只剩一半"
this applies to me as well. Seriously, I dont have much of an outlet.
oh yes, I found out some bloody shocking happy news but it has to be kept on the downlow.
which REALLY just makes me wanna tell ppl even more.
u get? damn.
and so, very smart me, I chose to tell someone about my brother.
and very the smart her, she go n tell my brother that I told her.
I was like WHAT THE FUCK? -___-
my bro is never gonna let me know anything ady lar.
where got ppl reveal their fucking sources one?
you think it's funny? really?
compromising ur sources will only lead ur source to a dead end.
DO YOU NOE HOW HARD IT IS TO GAIN TRUST?
FML. I'm not gonna tell u shit anymore la.
U expect utmost honesty between all of us, but really u think that can happen?
Fuck. I'm not even gonna tell u about my stuff anymore.
have fun being kept in the dark.
n really, I am so tired of this MCS thing.
the moment I bring up the topic abt my bro,
why am I still surprised that the attention shifted immediately and the call ends thr.
dafuq? why do I always feel so belittled when compared to him?
even when the attention was on me, most of the time, I just felt fuyan-ness.
oh yes, I AM always the doorknob topic.
after all the fuyanness then u talk abt urself only.
I get it that the people u want attention from isnt giving it to you,
and I am always, always the one who could give that to you...
but I am only human.
all I ask for is more sincerity?
all I ask for is to NOT be taken for granted.
just becz the world is unfair to you doesnt give u the right to be unfair to me.
it is actually harder than you think to make myself always be the one others can depend on.
just becz I try to be a good kid doesn't mean I'm THAT good that when I did a small mistake,
one small evil makes me a worse kid compared to the kids who are bad for the start.
It really is just perceptions and assumptions.
It really is just humane.
and it definitely is damn unfair.
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Monday, March 26, 2012
dangerous me
"I noe exactly what to say to break people.
that's why I always choose to shut up.
because what I say always land right at the spot.
it might break ppl beyond repair, or rarely, it will help them improve.
trust me, one day if you piss me off enough,
you'll have a taste of it.
just like how the people tasted it last time."
wanted to post the above passage ytdy but decided not to.
anyway, I'm glad I always choose to shut up.
Because nobody's perfect.
Sorry for letting anger/ disgust cloud my "analysis?" (nt sure if that's the correct word)
after some thots into the whole situation, I finally got you figured out :)
I'm not that mad per se (at least nt anymore), but degrading others to feel better is a BAD BAD way to deal with whatever you are trying to avoid to face.
Hope you get what I've said to you.
Wish you all the best then~ cheers ^^
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that's why I always choose to shut up.
because what I say always land right at the spot.
it might break ppl beyond repair, or rarely, it will help them improve.
trust me, one day if you piss me off enough,
you'll have a taste of it.
just like how the people tasted it last time."
wanted to post the above passage ytdy but decided not to.
anyway, I'm glad I always choose to shut up.
Because nobody's perfect.
Sorry for letting anger/ disgust cloud my "analysis?" (nt sure if that's the correct word)
after some thots into the whole situation, I finally got you figured out :)
I'm not that mad per se (at least nt anymore), but degrading others to feel better is a BAD BAD way to deal with whatever you are trying to avoid to face.
Hope you get what I've said to you.
Wish you all the best then~ cheers ^^
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Sunday, March 25, 2012
birds of the same feather
do you hear yourself talking?
I mean like seriously.
most of the time, I enjoy your company.
but sometimes, you can REALLY DISGUST me.
You talk abt integrity & morals.
Then you talk abt how you would like to violate them.
What are you trying to prove?
That you've got game?
Tell you what, all you proved is your own insecurities.
"sticking with one girl, wouldn't be fun".
oh c'mon, you think it would be fun to stick to u?
it takes more than fun for a relationship to work, if you cant see that,
then God bless you.
Careful.. one day, you might really end up being alone.
what I mean by alone is really alone. deep down soul etching loneliness.
you might have a wife, a family.. but in the end, you'll still be alone.
Why?
because of the choices you made or are about to make.
because you always choose to run away from your confusion.
because you treat PEOPLE like OBJECTS.
because of your own cowardice towards commitment.
because you dont have the guts to man up to the world.
because you dont have the balls to face even the SLIGHTEST POSSIBILITY OF HURT.
birds of the same feather flock together.
I quite pride myself with my guy friends.
Frankly, most of them aint bad :) hahaha.
You are my friend, a dear one at that, but really...
if you continue to be like this, I dun think we can actually 'flock' together anymore.
You need serious help.
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I mean like seriously.
most of the time, I enjoy your company.
but sometimes, you can REALLY DISGUST me.
You talk abt integrity & morals.
Then you talk abt how you would like to violate them.
What are you trying to prove?
That you've got game?
Tell you what, all you proved is your own insecurities.
"sticking with one girl, wouldn't be fun".
oh c'mon, you think it would be fun to stick to u?
it takes more than fun for a relationship to work, if you cant see that,
then God bless you.
Careful.. one day, you might really end up being alone.
what I mean by alone is really alone. deep down soul etching loneliness.
you might have a wife, a family.. but in the end, you'll still be alone.
Why?
because of the choices you made or are about to make.
because you always choose to run away from your confusion.
because you treat PEOPLE like OBJECTS.
because of your own cowardice towards commitment.
because you dont have the guts to man up to the world.
because you dont have the balls to face even the SLIGHTEST POSSIBILITY OF HURT.
birds of the same feather flock together.
I quite pride myself with my guy friends.
Frankly, most of them aint bad :) hahaha.
You are my friend, a dear one at that, but really...
if you continue to be like this, I dun think we can actually 'flock' together anymore.
You need serious help.
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art of expression
I sux at it.
the art of expression.
I oways find it so hard to express what I really wanna express.
with words, with emotions, gestures. everything. urgh.
it pisses me off sometimes.
I tell people I understand what they are going thru.
I REALLY DO. but I dun think they get that I do.
I have this 'curse' of being clairvoyant? haha.
I'm good at reading people.
I get why they act that way or how they are self-destructing.
(at least I think I get them. )
I want to help them. really.. I do.
part and parcel of being a Christian too maybe?
problem: I dunno how.
telling them might bruise their ego.
not telling them, I feel like I 见死不救. lol.
As a person, we don't like to be transparent in front of ppl.
correct? The irony rite?
We search all our lives for someone who could understand us,
but we are also afraid.
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the art of expression.
I oways find it so hard to express what I really wanna express.
with words, with emotions, gestures. everything. urgh.
it pisses me off sometimes.
I tell people I understand what they are going thru.
I REALLY DO. but I dun think they get that I do.
I have this 'curse' of being clairvoyant? haha.
I'm good at reading people.
I get why they act that way or how they are self-destructing.
(at least I think I get them. )
I want to help them. really.. I do.
part and parcel of being a Christian too maybe?
problem: I dunno how.
telling them might bruise their ego.
not telling them, I feel like I 见死不救. lol.
As a person, we don't like to be transparent in front of ppl.
correct? The irony rite?
We search all our lives for someone who could understand us,
but we are also afraid.
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