a leap of faith perhaps?

going back Melaka soon lerr..

I dun wanna say Goodbye laar.

espcially when u rly nid to mean it.....

it's so saddening. makes me realise hw loooong more till the next "hi" to you..

hw loong more till i get to see you again..

wad makes it harder..

is that i rly dunno.

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动摇了。

just finished watching 海派甜心 ..

makes me feel kinda emo ):

esp after watching their NG scenes..

i've always been interested in performing arts/ film/ theatre?

watching the NG scenes reminds me so much of drama!

brings back lots n lots of memories..

sometimes, i imagine myself being involved in smth like tat :)
the shooting, NGs, slpless nites..

but then, tis field is hard to survive bah.

+ structural integrity problem. lols TT

没有勇气

risk too much.

Settling for Law.

--- > prof job. good pay. stable life.

but i rly wish i have d chance to experience smth like tat looor.. ):

damm jealous of Pawara laa.. T T

haihhs... maybe "one day" my chance will come :)

有期待。。 是件好事吧 ♥

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How how how? ):

Teach me how to react to all these things!! ):

urghhhh...
i dunno hw to react la..

wad is the boundaries?

wad if i screw up?

wad if....

wad if i was wrong? lol :S

sux sux sux~~ @@

getting tired of playing this game laa..

I WAN OUT. meh?

wad if wanting out was wrong too?

i dont wan to taste regret worr...

)':

y cant u jz tell me instead? lol :S

i wanna noe.

the place i have.

in yr eyes perhaps.... :X?

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Pweety please??

I wanna go bak to form3 4 &5!!!
Miss it so so so so so much......
Tis weekend spent it in KL wit Karine..
Wasn't exactly wad I tot.. )':
Thr was no screaming when we met.
No hugs during goodbyes.
It became rather a significant regret........
Why did it end like tis??
I imagined smth so much btr!

Then thr's obstacles. Some crazy bitches tat makes life so difficult.
Domino's pizza phailed.. Was looooking so forward to it.
But plan ruined by one of d bitches. Gave wrong info to me..
Wthell wo!!

Den another bitch took Karine away cz she was too much a coward to go to town herself.
Damn sien! Make me bo mood dao bao!


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I've decided. =)

APPRECIATE THE MOMENT.

that's wad i'll do for the time being.

no expectation = no disappointment

(:

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struggles?

aiyoyo. wad am i becoming?

so wasted lar. emotional turmoil?

urghh. i dunno wad to do!

i felt drowned. in unnecessary thots? in necessary or unnecessary stuff?

lol. get wad i mean? ==

i feel pathetic. waiting.

WAITING. it kills. seriously...

*sigh*

72hrs.

den the feeling vanished?

i feel stupid trying to hold on to that feeling.

it was so hard. so hard to find back smth in the past..

nw now its gone again? lol. i m crapping.

i dun even noe y i post tis thing up ==

i hate the feeling that 忽冷忽热 u noe?

so many uncertainties.

create so many unnecessary thots?

urgh darn..

last question: Shud i hold on? or let go? move on?

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难道是错的吗？

T^T

)':

D:

very moody these few days ehh... haihxx..

made a bunch of frends in MMU ler..

i mean, it's nice la.. but tis week had been upsy turdy.

i feel out of place? i feel like i dont mix? aiyo! i dunno hw say..

they r fun to b with lar.

but...

i feel tat they cant set their priorities straight lor!

urghh.. it's hard to be with ppl who have different standards of efficiency..

it's hard to cope with them. feel so tired?

den there'll always b a dilemma like:

"hmm.. if i follow them, sure fun etc... den more bond oso ma.."

"but lectures are important! cannot ponteng la!"

so, whn i chose to NOT PONTENG with them..

problem occur?

like, "eh~ ltr we skip lecture, help me sign attendance a!"

*takes paper* "come! i teach u!"

wtf?!

obviously, i dont do these kind of stuff rite? ==

i mean, OI, if u have d guts to ponteng, have the guts to face d consequences oso la!

diiiuu.. -.-

u ponteng, ur choice weh! y drag me in?

y shud i do smth wrong for ur sake rite?

but then again... -.- being in tat situation...

3 of them sendiri come teach me sign their signature...

wad else can i say?

i told them, "tis is the 1st, the last n the only time i'll do tis."

"Joanna, u beh song us a?"

"a bit lor..."

sighhhs...

in the end, i didnt sign for them.

they asked another girl to do it.

speechless ler.

d reason they skip tat 1 hr lecture is becz they r hungry.

Like i wasnt?! -.-

so i dunno lar. if i hav to put up with them for the whole of tis trimester like tis..

very sien de leh. it's like, i do the right thing, but alone. U GET?

it makes me feel like nt doing d right thing, or simply leave these friends?

bt it wasnt easy to make friends la! aiyoyo..

another time was, 4pm tutorial.. den 3.45pm i wan go class le..

den they were like.. aiya! nvm lar.. go at 3.55 :)

"ok lor.." *sighs*

when reach class, no seats in the front liao.

OMG sitting at the back sux! the LCD cant see, d lecturer talk like unclear liao..

N.... i sat with a 电脑白痴! seriously!

OMG. it's not like i'm discriminating or wadever,

or trying to say tat i'm good (which i am XD HAH)

but, c'mon la! pay attention in class! GAH.

my blood vessel can pop i tell u.

the tchr demo once. i demo once.

she still din get it. d most basic one oso she dunno.

in the end, i practically move her mouse n do the tutorial for her -.-

damm sien.

n oso....... got some prob with a bossy friend oso!

****

seriously.. -.- at 1st is becz she sprained her ankle, so i mean.. ok la nvm, i help her do stuff.

den her leg ok liao still continue weh!

wtf. den hor~ she quarrel with her bf... take it out on us tim.. sien.

so hw la?

see how things go bah..

stuck with them for assignments le anyways... ):

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