诅咒吗？

有时候 真的很害怕 闭上眼睛。。

因为 会回到回不去的过去，

因为 会看到不想面对的将来，

因为 会体会到渴望发生的事的痛苦，

因为 会被那么实际的思念和寂寞所折磨。。

累啊。

可是也只好 闭上眼睛了。。

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a leap of faith perhaps?

going back Melaka soon lerr..

I dun wanna say Goodbye laar.

espcially when u rly nid to mean it.....

it's so saddening. makes me realise hw loooong more till the next "hi" to you..

hw loong more till i get to see you again..

wad makes it harder..

is that i rly dunno.

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动摇了。

just finished watching 海派甜心 ..

makes me feel kinda emo ):

esp after watching their NG scenes..

i've always been interested in performing arts/ film/ theatre?

watching the NG scenes reminds me so much of drama!

brings back lots n lots of memories..

sometimes, i imagine myself being involved in smth like tat :)
the shooting, NGs, slpless nites..

but then, tis field is hard to survive bah.

+ structural integrity problem. lols TT

没有勇气

risk too much.

Settling for Law.

--- > prof job. good pay. stable life.

but i rly wish i have d chance to experience smth like tat looor.. ):

damm jealous of Pawara laa.. T T

haihhs... maybe "one day" my chance will come :)

有期待。。 是件好事吧 ♥

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How how how? ):

Teach me how to react to all these things!! ):

urghhhh...
i dunno hw to react la..

wad is the boundaries?

wad if i screw up?

wad if....

wad if i was wrong? lol :S

sux sux sux~~ @@

getting tired of playing this game laa..

I WAN OUT. meh?

wad if wanting out was wrong too?

i dont wan to taste regret worr...

)':

y cant u jz tell me instead? lol :S

i wanna noe.

the place i have.

in yr eyes perhaps.... :X?

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Pweety please??

I wanna go bak to form3 4 &5!!!
Miss it so so so so so much......
Tis weekend spent it in KL wit Karine..
Wasn't exactly wad I tot.. )':
Thr was no screaming when we met.
No hugs during goodbyes.
It became rather a significant regret........
Why did it end like tis??
I imagined smth so much btr!

Then thr's obstacles. Some crazy bitches tat makes life so difficult.
Domino's pizza phailed.. Was looooking so forward to it.
But plan ruined by one of d bitches. Gave wrong info to me..
Wthell wo!!

Den another bitch took Karine away cz she was too much a coward to go to town herself.
Damn sien! Make me bo mood dao bao!


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I've decided. =)

APPRECIATE THE MOMENT.

that's wad i'll do for the time being.

no expectation = no disappointment

(:

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struggles?

aiyoyo. wad am i becoming?

so wasted lar. emotional turmoil?

urghh. i dunno wad to do!

i felt drowned. in unnecessary thots? in necessary or unnecessary stuff?

lol. get wad i mean? ==

i feel pathetic. waiting.

WAITING. it kills. seriously...

*sigh*

72hrs.

den the feeling vanished?

i feel stupid trying to hold on to that feeling.

it was so hard. so hard to find back smth in the past..

nw now its gone again? lol. i m crapping.

i dun even noe y i post tis thing up ==

i hate the feeling that 忽冷忽热 u noe?

so many uncertainties.

create so many unnecessary thots?

urgh darn..

last question: Shud i hold on? or let go? move on?

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