claustrophobic-ish

I'm stuck.
feels as if I'm being shut inside a room.
It's like I'm running in circles in a dark room.
All Alone.

I dunno why this is happening to me...
yet to figure out why I'm feeling like this.
I wanna go to church and just cry there.

just got back from carolling practice.
& I realised, I couldn't feel "Christmas" at all.
The hymns seem so empty, only shells.
Words and songs are meant to mean something, yet it was so unfamiliar.
My body was just singing. My soul... wasn't in it.


even when I realised all these,
I couldnt change anything.
I tried....

I pray & pray.
I talk to You...
But this time, I can't feel Your presence...
it feels just horrible to lose sight of You.
I'm scared... and lost... and I really feel empty inside.

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